I’ve had enough worry about Covid 19. That doesn’t mean I’m ready to go dashing out into the world willy-nilly, rather I’m in touch with friends whom I haven’t talked to in a long time. Mostly friends overseas.

Way overseas, in some cases. Last night, I had an hour long video chat on Facebook with a friend I haven’t seen in more than twenty years. It’s not like we live a few blocks away, or even a continent away. She lives in Australia, I live in Kansas City. But through the magic of virtual travel, we each curled up in our respective corners and chatted.

When the memoir comes out, you’ll learn more about her. Marion de Nice. She came to Kalani Honua, a retreat center on Hawaii Island down near Volcano, where many had gathered for a few months of spiritual renewal. Marion was about three months pregnant when she arrived and even more when she left a few months later. Last night, she told me that this boy, who now plays football, sits down on the ground and meditates when no one passes the ball to him. I laughed out loud. But then, it makes sense as we were all doing enormous amounts of meditating and spiritual healing at Kalani.

I also called my Aunt Donna whom I hadn’t talked to in way too long. She lives not as far – about sixty miles away, across the state line in Topeka, Kansas. We talked for a long time, too, and I caught up on all the news of the Sunderland Clan. Remarkably, all the elders are still alive although I think my oldest cousin Darrell, still on the farm, is past 90. I also talked to my cousin Linn Sunderland whom I hadn’t seen in too long a time. He’s sort of the family-tree keeper. He is also, with his wife Pat, involved with others who are restoring the old school where we all went to High School and which has set empty for years and years except for class reunions. The plan is to turn all the classrooms along the west side into hydroponic gardens and sell the produce to area markets. The gym, which is where reunions are always held, is in good shape and any money made from garden sales will go to fix up the school kitchen so they can rent out the gym for weddings or other family gatherings.

Summerfield High School will live again.

I, or rather we, meaning my son and I, cleaned up our nearly half-acre backyard and removed winter debris. I feed birds and squirrels but other that walking across the yard to the feeder, the backyard suffered from my absence over fall and winter. I trimmed the rose bushes while Steve used the blower to collect the leaves in one corner of the fence where I compost them. Iris are beginning to stick their leaves above ground. I have purple iris, the old fashioned kind that smell like grape pop. The kind my grandpa used to grow, but I got these roots from a farm friend up near our farm. She gave me several bags full, so grape pop iris are scattered around the edges of the backyard slat fence. Naked Ladies have also sent up their leaves.

If you’ve never heard of Naked Ladies (as in flowers, please bring your mind back to the topic) they grow a lot of leaves which then die back and these long slender stems shoot up with bright and large pink flowers. Hence, Naked ladies since they have no sheltering leaves, only a long stem. But gorgeous.

Most of all, I stay home. Cliff does the shopping because he doesn’t want me out. Well, he mostly does the shopping anyway, and sometimes lets me go with him. He also does the laundry and much of the cooking. I am a spoiled wife. And very grateful to my mother-in-law who taught him.

Since the memoir is at the publishers, I had to go digging through all the bits and pieces of essays and poems I’ve written over the years and start looking for a home for them – they are tired of my very crowded folders. Here’s one of them.

         Inching into Spring 

Spring rain tagged heels of hail

throbbing across our house roof.

I woke, came to sit at my window,

brew tea, watch the show.

But it stopped.

And I sit in gray silk light

waiting for a daybreak long past

that will not come today.

The willow’s branches, softened

into leaf by three days of sun,

frames its new green lace

in a purple budding tree.

For three days spring leapt toward Easter,

until now, exhausted from the effort,

since rebirth is never easy, it rests.

This side of the window, I refill my cup.

Day Something or the Other

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Each day I need to look at my phone to see what day it is. Today is Monday. Our wise city mayor has instituted a shelter in place order (which I tend to do most days, anyway) and for the most part, that’s what Kansas City is doing. We are allowed to go for walks outside as long as we keep “social distance.” The street in front of our house has people walking by from time to time — I know that because my desk faces a window to the street. My rear office window, where I sit to journal each morning while I drink tea, faces the backyard. I must admit, the backyard is more interesting. There the squirrels dash around the yard and up through the trees in the most amazing feats of bravery and balance, and bright red cardinals come to the bird feeder which I fill each day.

The front window shows me couples, some pushing a baby in a carriage although I don’t think they call them carriages anymore. (Strollers, that’s what they’re called! Just remembered.) But whatever baby seats are called, there they are. During normal times, whatever passes for normal, I rarely see anyone outside walking. But now they are as we live on a side street with very little traffic. Earlier, I watched a boy on a skateboard dashing along, followed by a woman whom I presume was his mother, on a larger one. Amazingly, she was reading and texting on her phone as she skated along. She did slip off, once, right in front of our house as I was expecting her to all along. Hopefully it wasn’t my condemnation of anyone skateboarding while reading a phone that propelled itself through the window to make her fall. Actually, she didn’t really fall completely, at which I was quite amazed, but did manage to tip the board enough that one wheel came off. Her son came back to rescue both her and the skateboard and replace one of the wheels that had come off. While pretty nimble, she wasn’t as nimble as the squirrels.

I’m getting used to the new and different WordPress. Mostly, I just start typing. Sometimes, as you’ve noticed, I find a photo to insert, but since we’re all at home, and the television on all the time, there’s not a lot to see unless I take a photo of the backyard trees, now beginning to bloom.

But now, I’m going to go work out in my makeshift gym in our bedroom. And probably listen to more news. It’s addictive.

All of you, my friends online, stay safe.


What to Do When Covid 19 Strikes

I’m home – as is nearly everyone else in the world – but that’s not especially new and different for me. I’m home most of the time unless going grocery shopping, which, in these days of peril, is doable but not necessary at the moment. I’ve nearly finished editing the main copy of a manuscript on Franz Jung, son of C.G. Jung, for my 90 year old friend who was a Jungian analyst and knew Franz. She’s been working on said manuscript for some thirty+ years so manuscript is in bits and pieces. It’s been like putting a puzzle together. And now, with my memoir at the publisher’s to deal with, I decided to clean out some of the many files I have stored over the years filled with essays.

Maybe you’re as bored with whatever you are doing or not doing and could use a break. The following is from 2003 when we first started cleaning up the farm and put a camper up there. Actually, we thought about going up there when Kansas City shut down, but that would mean — well, getting on the road and not knowing what we’re driving into. The photo above and the paragraph and photo below will have to suffice.

“We just spent three days up on the farm. I didn’t want to come back. We’ve put a camper up there and this past weekend was our first time getting to stay overnight. In the evenings, the sun sets red, red, red. Amazing really. I know there was a big volcanic eruption in the Pacific a couple of weeks ago so I expect that’s about the time it would take for an ash cloud to reach this part of the world. Between the redness of the aura and the colors in the sunset, the air took on an almost purplish color, and as I looked out to the west over the tallgrass, the prairie looked like an African velds painting. A solitary bird flew some distance away. I’ve always liked these moments just before sunset – the wind drops, birds stop calling, a stillness reigns, a waiting, almost as if everything recognizes an end of time and holds its collective breath.”

We’re all holding our collective breath. Or breathing into a face mask.

My mother’s favorite phrase, “This too shall pass,” seems appropriate.

Be safe, dream of your favorite places, and keep your face mask handy.


A Spam Cavalcade

How can there possibly be thousands of spam comments on my site which I have to delete daily or they get into the thousands!!

Does any one know how to deal with all this spam that’s happening on WordPress or is it something we have to do every day?

Perhaps I haven’t been paying close enough attention. I’m working on my own writing as well as editing a book by my elderly friend about Franz Jung, C.G. Jung’s son, whom she knew for some years back in late 80s/early 90s. And it’s a great project!

But I forget the daily sludge of going into my WordPress site and deleting spam. I mean, I had some 2 million or some such today and had just emptied it two weeks ago!

I do not need information on how to find a hot bum – or anything else for that matter. I need to be left alone. But alas, I am not so am writing and whining to you, my loyal readers.

Do any of you understand how to block spam?

Okay. Whine over. And out.

Cheers to you all who are still struggling along with the “new and improved” site. And hugs all around. We could all use them.


An Essay Published.

Here’s a journal, Still Life, that often publishes my essays. I’ve pasted in below the url for the digital edition, so hopefully you can pull it up. My piece is called “To Everything a Season” page 58. But there’s so many fine pieces in the journal you might want to begin at the beginning. All you have to do is click on “download the digital edition.” This is also the company that’s publishing my memoir. Let me know if the link to view and download doesn’t work and I’ll see if I can send it another way. You can go to Shanti Arts: and find it there.

Grandparents and Other Wise Ancestors—View and Download our Spring Journal  |  Online Art Exhibition  | 

Still Point Arts Quarterly  |  Spring 2020  |  No. 37    The theme is Grandparents and Other Wise Ancestors, and the digital edition may now be viewed and downloaded. Filled with art, fiction, non-fiction, and poetry, the digital edition also contains links to additional articles, related websites, and even videos. It’s free, so why not take a look?
Read the lead-in essay, Grandparents and Other Wise Ancestors