Yes, it really is…..

I woke early this morning feeling oddly awake. No aches. No stumbling weariness.  I thought it time to post a blog.

Writing has been – well, iffy, lately. Oh, I’ve been working at it: outlining journals from twenty-five years ago for a memoir; reading, filling my writing desk with Post-It notes and pieces of paper. Writing opening chapters have wandered as this post is wandering and have been cut and rewritten and taken apart and put back together again. And I was thinking, this morning, how much easier writing a novel might be than writing memoir as I do.

With novels, it seems to me, you only need your head. Easy. Well. That could be a problem too given how foggy my head has been these last few months. And my friend Theresa does a lot of research for her historical novels. Okay. Scratch novel-writing.

Maybe life has been on the chaotic side for everyone pretty much.

deskAnd yes, this really is what my writing area looks like and not a staged photo to say “writer’s room.” Mis-ordered chaos. Which is to say, I sort of know which pile to look in when I’m searching for something but not always.

What have I been doing all this time besides stumbling around? Writing grants. I’ve done that. Been to a lot of board meetings for Whispering Prairie Press because I involved in us in this whole process of moving ahead – somewhere – and to move ahead you need money and to get money, you write grants. So I guess I have been writing in one way or another.

Cliff and I have traveled. We drove to the Ozarks for a wonderful weekend and officiated at a wedding. We officiated at another wedding in early September north of Kansas City.  And I went up to Marshall County and met contractors to put an addition on the farm and to set up an artist residency for January (not on the farm, in Marysville). And last week, we went to Baltimore for my husband’s thirty-fifth anniversary of ordination and after that, went out to Ocean City for three days and stopped. Well, we walked a lot and that’s not exactly stopping, but every morning this was the view off our balcony.

oceanYes, it really was that beautiful.

Okay. So grants and travel. I guess that helps me feel a little less AOL.

I can’t say I’ve done a lot of house cleaning although over the summer, we did accomplish a fair amount of repair work on the house and refinanced.

And in May my book of poetry reached a reality between covers (in other words, published) and the months leading up to that filled with revisions and proofing and re-proofing and choosing covers and and and. Having a book published is every writer’s dream but when you get to it, whew! It’s a lot of work that swallows up days.

I seem to be going backwards in time to piece it all together.

“Know thyself” is a great idea in theory, but usually the knowledge comes in bits that you have to assemble like a picture puzzle when the top-of-the-puzzle-box-picture is missing. Or the picture changes. The structure to Knowing is less than clearly delineated.


9 thoughts on “Yes, it really is…..

  1. Glad to read your post and see what you’ve been up to. I also like the analogy to putting a puzzle together when the top to the box is missing. If the top is missing, then probably a few pieces are as well, which makes the whole task of Knowing Thyself even harder.
    Congrats on the book! I’ve enjoyed the poems immensely.

  2. Janet, enjoyed reading yr blog. We must hv a lot in common. I too write poetry- and yr desk/writing area looks like mine. Lol. It was wonderful meeting you and seeing Cliff @ St. Marys. I will stay in touch. And I hope my visit to Holt, and KC will b sooner than later. Best, Phil Fiadino

    1. Phil! How nice to hear from you. I’ve thought of you since Baltimore and hoped you’d be in touch. Thanks so much for reading. Hope you will visit soon also. You’re always welcome here. And send me some poetry. I’d like reading it.

  3. Life is chaotic, but just think how much you have accomplished this year! A book! Grants. Travel.
    And more will come. Small daily actions build to huge accomplishments. We just don’t see them at the time. You must see tremendous growth and progress in your journals. Smile at each development you see.

    1. You’re very kind, Theresa. Thank you. I do keep a monthly calendar with small actions noted and whenever feeling defeated, I check it out. Oh, yeah. That…. A shorter shot in the arm that digging through all the journaling! It has been a full year. And I don’t think I’m alone in that one. But I still miss blogging and am impressed with your routine and schedule.

  4. I have missed you!!! Baltimore is my second favorite place on earth!! Glad you have been traveling and enjoying the moment. That is so important!

  5. Nice to see your blog again. The poetry book is really wonderful. I have it in my living room and like to pick it up from time to time to read. Just lovely, Janet.

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