Wednesday of Holy Week
God has given me a well-trained tongue…and opens my ears that I may hear; Isiah 50
The one who has dipped his hand into the dish with me is the one who will hand me over. Matthew 26
Today’s gospel from Matthew retells the story we had yesterday from John’s Gospel: Jesus is celebrating the Passover meal with his disciples and says, “…one of you will betray me.”
Betrayal comes in many forms from many directions.
Sometimes we are betrayed by those we love or who love us; sometimes we are betrayed by strangers when they cut us off on the highway without thinking of the danger they represent.
So much of literature is tied into betrayal – from the Homer epics through Shakespeare to modern plays and music. We humans betray one another – in thought, word, and deed.
Betrayal may be the harshest human experience to forgive. We become hurt, furious, we want to hurt back. We rarely use a “well-trained tongue” when confronting it. We rarely listen to the inner voice that reminds us we are safe, to forgive, to move on. Instead we hold on to the betrayal as if we are justified in punishing ourselves as we punish another.
“Forgive them for they know not what they do.”
Today, in your Lenten reflections and in preparation for a new birth into light, you may want to take some time to list the betrayals others have done to you that still elicit anguish or anger, and listen to your Spirit voice as you see those names. Can you forgive? Can you release the anger or rage or fear against that experience or person?
Are you able to move clearly and securely into your own resurrection?